I'VE just been through a crisis in my 13-year-old marriage.
A month ago, my husband, the only man in my life for the past 15 years, the father of my four lovely children, dropped a bomb on me.
He told me that he had a fling with his secretary and he would be leaving his well-paid job so as to end the episode.
Have I been a submissive wife? I would say, "Yes".
Perhaps, he might say, "No". My occasional tantrums might have put him off, but he has chosen to ignore the fact that I've been stressed by the hectic routine at home.
I had wished for a husband who would be patient, caring and most importantly, faithful to me.
Over the years I've gone through four pregnancies and given up my career. I've sacrificed sleep and leisure, meals and rest, to cope with the demanding schedules of my three schoolgoing children and an energetic toddler.
We have never even had a decent holiday — every vacation was spent visiting his parents and relatives in Malaysia.
My husband is a man of few words; he doesn't seem keen to engage in conversation with me.
No matter how tough my day, he has never given me a pat on my back or whispered "sweet nothings" to comfort me.
I'm not a superwoman. There were times when I broke down and cried for attention. Instead of silencing me with a reassuring hug, he rained punches on me and even strangled me!
He does not want to hear anything that might upset him — if I had to cry, I was expected to cry alone because he would never understand why I should feel hurt.
I've accepted him the way he is — even when my heart has been bleeding for over a decade.
Where's the respect? Is there equality in marriage? If only one spouse is working on it, we can't take for granted that the "receiving" spouse will reciprocate the effort.
In my case, my husband was so absorbed with his secretary, that he didn't see my devotion and sacrifices for the family.
He looked distracted when he was with us, came home later after work, showed little enthusiasm for birthday celebrations. I was the one organising every activity to keep the family together.
A man might think that he has done a great duty for the family by bringing home the bread and butter.
When he comes home after work, he expects the wife to be more than just the children's mother. He wants the wife to also provide him with gentle loving care.
My husband has obviously missed the fact that I'm already dead tired after a long day with the children, having driven eight to 10 trips in the car, feeding and changing the baby up to six times a day.
Don't I also wish he could come back to offer me some warmth and passion?
We could discuss ways to rekindle our romance, but it's usually tough. Either both of us are too tired and mentally stressed, or, there's always interference from one of our children.
Even in bed, we're "separated" by at least one child sleeping between us.
I had relied on our marriage vow that, even though the relationship might dull, we'd remain faithful to each other. And on the hope that tomorrow might get better.
I consoled myself by trusting that the man I married would be happy that I was totally independent and efficient at running the household alone, so that he could devote his entire time, energy and concentration to his work.
I never expected that he would abuse my trust and spend his time, energy and money on another woman instead.
Worst of all, he thinks he has the right to decide how he wants to spend his time.
He knows what he's doing is morally wrong, but he simply can't resist the temptation.
What shall I do? I've had to battle bitterness in silence, while learning to forgive him. If I kick up a fuss, I might upset him so much that he would be consumed with anger.
I have to be magnanimous, yes, very magnanimous — otherwise, the marriage will be over, and that doesn't mean it would be better for us and it definitely would not be for the kids.
There is no justice, but should we talk about justice in a marriage?
Can I leave him? I can't. For the sake of my four young children. We depend on him for a living.
I have to focus on moving forward. To give my children a healthy family life, I have to forgive my unfaithful husband, whether he's worthy of the forgiveness or not; and I have to continue to work on improving our relationship, whether he's worth the effort or not.
I've also been advised not to hate the other woman … so I had to remind myself to thank her. Why? She has given me a wake-up call, otherwise, I would still be living in my own dreams for the future.
Now that I know what my husband needs, I have to work on my role as a wife. Hopefully, from now on, we can live happily ever after.
This was contributed by a reader. She has not been named in full, to protect her privacy and that of her children. What do you think of her views? Tell us, at news@newstoday.com.sg
Before anything else, I would like to express my utmost sincere admiration and respect for the lady in concern.
A couple of friends would have heard my words: "There would never be equality in any relationship and marriage".
It's pointless and really endless to debate about the much ancient issue of each gender's rights and equality in relationships and marriages. Rather than "piting" both genders against each other, why not divert and focus on reflection on and improving oneself and of course one another?
The Women's Charter in Singapore has been enforced since 1961. For guys that have always been complaining about it, this real-life case is one of the many that offer more than sufficient justification about the absolute need for it.
Equality: Do we see a Men's Charter upcoming soon? Come on, face it guys, we all know it. I won't deny that a Men's Charter or alike might be appearing in the near future. Maybe it would kick-in in the western countries first? BUT DO WE really want a society that is bound by rules, legislations, rules, legislations? Certainly, there have been ladies benefiting from the Women's Charter, but whether anyone has the intention of using it for her own gain (especially monetary gains) is not for us to assume and gossip about. I'm pretty fine with how it is going now. I act on a clear conscience, I believe that no woman can use the Women's Charter against me.
Driven to the wall, anyone can do anything in that spur of the moment. Let's just hope that moment won't pop up that often and when it ever comes, drag it longer and open up your eyes, brain and heart.